In a simple sentence: probably not! Is that even a proper sentence? I don't know!
My life at this very moment is probably the most stressed I've ever been (besides probably the time that I found out I needed braces in middle school). I'm a full-time college student, I work almost 30 hours a week at a fast food job that I do not enjoy whatsoever, and I have midterms this week with a 3-page paper to write about the legalization of alcohol as well as a 7-page paper about opioids and how they affect families and children. No, but that's not all! I also am unable to withdrawal money from an account that is expiring in a little more than a month from now! So no, I probably haven't been getting enough sleep these past couple of months. Hell, I can't even wake up for my alarm most days.
So, what are my sleeping habits looking like right now? The time I usually go to bed ranges from between 12AM and 4AM. It's not looking good, champ. I struggle to shut down most nights simply due to the amount of crippling stress I'm in every given day. Usually I am perfectly fine using my phone before bed. A lot of information online claims that blue light prevents you from falling asleep, but usually I sleep just fine when I use my phone before bed. In fact, I'm out like a light... No pun intended.
It really does suck because not even showering helps me shut down anymore. I just have to forcefully close my eyes and remember that everything is okay even if I really don't believe that. When I am sleeping, I usually sleep uninterrupted—which is at least one pro in a sea of cons. Regardless though, my sleep doesn't really feel that restful. It sucks. When I'm at work, usually the one thing I'm looking forward to is laying in bed and going to sleep. But I can't even do that with ease now.
Luckily, I don't think my lack of restful sleep has been impacting me much. I honestly just feel super stressed and drained with life, but I don't even think that's really sleep-related at all. It honestly feels like everything is just happening at once. School, work, writing papers, dealing with assholes, money problems... I keep telling myself it's temporary, but right now it really just feels like a lot. I'm mostly just worried about losing all of my money, man.
Hopefully once midterms and my whole bank account issue is done with, I can finally calm down. Right now I just need to get through this week and maybe, just maybe, get a full night of sleep.
Thanks for reading.
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